Song: John Prine and Iris DeMent/In Spite of Ourselves
Feelings: Excited with a layer of sadness in the middle
Gratitude: Grateful for the people that are rallying to help get Bouldin reopened
It was our 21st anniversary on the 16th of this month. I only realized it when a friend reached out and asked me. I have been so focused on trying to get reopened that it hadn't even crossed my mind. I didn't really even tell anyone and times are so weird now that no one seemed to notice. It's also part of being in this industry. Weekends are weekdays, Fridays are our Mondays, holidays barely exist and are often our heaviest workdays, and so on. I think that I've had to be reminded of my own birthday for the past 20 years.
Speaking of holidays, with Father's Day right around the corner, I can really feel grief creeping in this year. My father passed away about 6 years ago at a period when I was so busy at work I didn't have much time to visit him or for that matter, fully grieve afterward. My father was one of my biggest supporters and there would be no Bouldin Creek without him. Unfortunately, when he was at his worst health wise, I was the busiest I had ever been as a business owner. The restaurant was severely shorthanded in the kitchen and it felt like we were having to rebuild the business from the ground up.
The whole process of reopening brings back memories of that stressful time and sadness for lost time with my father. There are days when I feel like I just can't do it. At the same time it feels like an opportunity to honor him, a time to do things differently so I can live a healthier more balanced life. I know he wanted that for me. I am surrounded by people who want to help and believe in Bouldin and that makes it so much easier.
I am privileged to have such a supportive family and when I think of all of the people who have touched my life here in Austin, I am truly blown away. The constant support of this community has made the continuation of Bouldin Creek Cafe possible. I hope to return the favor and make you feel loved and happy when the restaurant reopens.
P.S. Happy Birthday to the lovely Karen Umminger!